Almost Christmas

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Christmas is near and 2016 is almost over. I still can’t believe it as I’m typing this. It seems like just yesterday when I was writing this post in Seattle, just a few weeks after I found out I was expecting my third child.

Christmas-decor-homeI have much to be thankful for this year. A new baby, a new mindset, a new goal (or two), and even a new husband through the birth of another baby (more on this later). Many personal projects remain unfinished and I took another detour from my personal destination and gratification. I’m not going to lie, it wasn’t easy. It’s never easy for a woman like me who likes to keep certain things to herself– like her job, her dreams, her space, her final destination.

Three kids later, I’m still mediocre as a SAHM. I mean, I do it all- the cooking, the cleaning, the consoling, the organizing. I do it because I have to- I’m well aware of the fact that these are a part of my job as a mother and wife- but I don’t particularly “enjoy” it. I do sometimes, but most of the time it’s work, like everything else.

Sometimes I just want to lock myself in a room and recoup, recharge and dig a little deeper. Especially when Christmas rolls around and the weather chills and leaves wither and fall. I like digging deeper because it makes me feel alive. I can do the living day to day like everyone else, but these things don’t necessarily make me feel real. 

I want to dig deeper and nurture the jewels I find. Then take them out little by little and turn them into tangible stories. This seems to be my thing, I don’t know…this is what I’m trying to figure out but life doesn’t allow this luxury in the moment.

Yet I have this blog, and this blog helped me in so many ways this year. What does this blog need from me and what do I need from this blog?

I find myself pondering upon this very question just like when I started.Christmas-decor-home

I’ve been rethinking my blog a lot these days. With the pregnancy and the new baby, it has become more of a mom blog where I share stories of motherhood, kids, baby products, all that good stuff. I mean, these are great and I genuinely enjoy writing them but there is more that my soul yearns for.

So I created a new category called “diary.” This is where all the digging begins. You may want to read them, you may not. That’s okay, because I’ll continue to write about all the mommy stuff too. The stuff that gets pinned, shared and liked more. The stuff that are easier to read, the stuff that “adds value” to others.

Meanwhile, here are some photos I took around the home tonight. This is what Christmas looks like in our household. Slow, steady and calm. My kids and husband are busy around me but my soul is silent and steady, as if it’s awaiting for something big and life changing.

Christmas-decor-homeAnd this is a good sign around this time of the year.

Merry Christmas dear reader. I wish you warmth and happiness wherever you are.

xx

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Angela
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8 thoughts on “Almost Christmas

  1. Kat

    Angela I feel like we are kindred spirits, so many of your posts are my own thoughts. I never envisioned myself as a SAHM and here I am 10 years later because of my son’s diagnosis. I have no regrets and I’m grateful that I’m able to do it but I do feel the desire to be alone with my thoughts so I can think without being interrupted by one of my 3 kids. I am in the process of thinking through goals for my family and my blog as well.

    Love your christmas card, you have a beautiful family! I hope you all had a Merry Christmas and I wish you a Happy 2017!

    1. Angela | Mommy Diary Post author

      Yes I think we ARE kindred spirits. It seems like our motherhood journey parallels each other’s greatly. So grateful we found each other’s blogs! I’m looking forward to reading more about you and your son’s journey in the new year. Hope you had a wonderful holiday season!

  2. Andi

    I cannot wait to dive into your “diary” section. I love your writing and I know that these deeper posts are going to be even better. Thank you for opening up your truth!

  3. Breyona sharpnack

    Your tree looks very beautiful and like it should be in a magazine! I am still trying to find decorations and ways to make the holidays more special for my kiddos since I am a stay at home mom as well. Most days I wing it

    1. Angela | Mommy Diary Post author

      I do the same. Some days it’s about survival and nothing more! I bought ornaments and Christmas decorations over time. A little by little, sale by sale- and I love the collection I’ve created. Take it one day at a time and it’ll already be a nice tradition of your own.

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